Things are beginning to get deep in my life again. Meaningful talks, good hangs, and sentiment are flooding back into my life. I need a way to channel it all. I need to write.
To make up for my mistakes and imperfections I have consciously decided to start going out of my way to do things that are good and right..things I've always passed over. I don't believe in "karma" as a religious or superstitious energy, but I have observed that generally, when you do good, good comes to you. Its a natural process. As a Christian I know that I am blessed when I sacrifice for God and others, but this new venture is really just to balance myself out and, in my own mind, make up to myself for wrong I have done and continually do. I want to be better. I want to be a whole person.
Here is a list of things I have tried so far:
-Picking up things that others have dropped in the grocery store and putting them back on the shelves. It really only takes a second. Obviously they aren't coming back to clean up their own mess.
-Not cutting corners at work....even when I really don't want to mop the areas where nobody walks. Its really not a hassle...and the mental regret I'll feel for doing wrong in the place of right, even in such a simple situation, is not worth the 5 seconds I'll save.
-Offering or agreeing to do things for other people when i really don't want to. I'm trying to think of ways to make other people's lives easier...even if its nothing major. Selflessness is more rewarding than selfishness.
-Choosing patience over conflict. I can control myself. I don't always have to win.
I know that these things seem like they should come naturally, but they are things that we all struggle with. Self approval is important. I want to feel good about myself. We all do. Its easier to forget the wrong you have done, and move on to be a better person, when you are constantly seeking out opportunities to do good.
"All that is necessary for evil to succeed is that good men do nothing" -Edmund Burke
It's always a hassle to you know..do things for other people. Our flesh is very selfish. But I think what you're doing is a great thing.
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